THANK you christiansmommy, I am feeling better in my spirits today, I guess getting the email really helped, keeping regular contact is a must for me, I can never get enough lol.

You know you summed it up, it is a part of me that has left, and that is why it feels so empty without him, you kinda have to go through a grieving process, because it is still a loss, thank goodness only a temporary one, but it sure feels awful, but I keep telling myself, to not be so silly, he is doing something positive that can only be rewarding for him, and I am thrilled he is following his dream, I am sure he will return all the better for it.

Thank you all for listening to me waffle on and on, but it really does help, get it all off my chest, my husband has been great, very caring , understanding, and is there for me 100 per cent, he misses him too, but is better at coping than me, he even brought me home a lovely yellow rose the other day to cheer me up.

I am proud that Scott did this, he worked hard to get there, and achieved his goal, it will help him set more goals in his life, and it can only be for the good IMO.It is all part of the maturing process.

That old saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder" sure is true.. The other boy he went with left his fiancee behind for the 2nd time, it must be hard on her, I had never met her before, but at the airport when they left she was left alone,(I had my family, my parents and sister there) so I went up to her and gave her a big hug, as we two were the only ones who really knew how it felt, she said she had done it before, and would cope, and that it was good for them. I said you are a Brave girl.