I'm sitting here in tears. I know its been a long few months, so I know I'm just winding down or whatever.
My mom and I had planned for her to come over to help me unpack today...and to just spend the day together.
I'm using my cell phone for my phone line...and its been working...getting service, getting phone calls since yesturday. It works, I've made calls to my brother and to my mom today.
Well, my mom called me around 11:30 a.m. and we arranged for her to call me on her way over. Well, she called at 12:00, 1:00 and then again at 1:45. In those messages she left on my voicemail, she offered to bring me lunch, go out to lunch and her final call was worried because she hadn't heard from me.
I've been RIGHT here and I swear to God my phone didn't ring. I've been doing dishes and hanging online...my phone is right next to me. I've been waiting for her call.
I decided to call her. She was a little mad...like, quiet...and hurt. She told me about her calls and it seemed like she didn't believe me that my phone DIDN'T ring. I was sitting here waiting for her!!
I'm totally sad...how come she'd think I'd ignore her?? She's my mom and has been so WONDERFUL to me. She's my favorite person on earth and I'd die without her love. I just feel so badly. We hung up and she basically told me to have a nice day.
I called my voicemail and found that I missed 6 calls!!
I called her back and told her that on Monday, I'm calling the phone company and will have them install a phone line. I can't have this happen again, I need to be reachable.
She was better...I apoligized and she said she'd be over. I just feel so bad. She's trying to help me...and I can't help but feel bad she'd think I'd just ignore her like that...turn my back on her helping me. I just feel so bad. I hate that she'd think I'd do that.
Ugh...I can't stop crying and I know that's so not adult of me. My heart hurts that this happened, that she'd think I'd do something like that.
Can I do anything to make it better? I already said I was sorry, that'd I'd get the phone line...can I do anything else??
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