Trying my da****** to stay off the pity pot...

[Catty1]

..but it is hard for me to stay off. I thought if I just vented here a wee bit, and let it out, I could renew a real feeling of gratitude and balance.

My friend Bruce died of cancer in November; Barbara is next; a longtime old family friend has lymphoma that went unchecked for years until his new wife dragged him to the doctor.

Mom and I for Christmas this year. One day, I will YEARN for Christmas with Mom again, it'll break my heart. But I cry because my dad is dead, my sister is dead, we are the last two and it's just us....I MISS all the family Christmases before!

I got two speeding tickets, my first in years. A truck backed into my vehicle in a parking lot today, crunching the front door. No one hurt, no major damage, and I THANK GOD that THIS accident wasn't my fault, for a change.

The usual financial crap that everyone has, so never mind that.

A call from a client today whose computer I fixed yesterday and it was running great, now sounds like it has a corrupted HD, and I had NO tools with me (supposed to be a day off) when I went to the city to help a friend pick up some stuff. I was going over to the client's for 4, had the accident at 2:20, had lunch and left my cell in the car and she called twice and left no message and I didn't know if she got the computer working or not...

No boyfriend and no prospects. But I should be used to that by now.

I had my best friend's gifts wrapped and went to give them to her when I dropped her off today, but she doesn't have room under her tree (it IS totally crammed in there), another good friend has no time to meet for coffee tomorrow now...where IS everyone? And another good friend finally wound up being the girlfriend of a guy we know mutually...

Ok, this makes no sense. But I am depressed and lonely and sad and on the pity pot and crying and that's all I can say.............





....thanks for listening...


...and I HATE crying because I usually get nosebleeds and I have had about 10 in the last 2 weeks, sometimes 2 a day, and cauterizing doesn't do much any more...

okay I am done...

[RICHARD]

hey,

Look at me!

I have a whole slew of stuff that I should be mad about.

The most recent is how much of an AH my brother is. Ugh, his wife told my nephew that my bro went to the hospital for a cat scratch.
And she didn't have the class to tell me! I don't care anymore about what happens. It's not the season or the reason to worry about shiat like that.

Oh, she did call my nephew again to tell him she would visit him when she could, she was going to have her nails done!

We have what we have, each other. Hold on tight to those people and thank the lord we can bask in the love of the people we know and care about.


I have spent the last two and a half weeks by myself just thinking about the holidays without my mom.

And I am not going to get down about it. It's way to soon to feel like she is gone. She's still in my heart and that's what I have to remember.


Oh, and about the boyfriend thing?

Men are scumbags, you are just setting yourself up for heartache!

[Queen of Poop]

Hugs for both Catty1 and Richard. Things for me kinda suck too. Doing my darndest to keep a smile on though, otherwise it would be like opening the flood gates and its too darn cold here for that. Those tears would freeze in an instant! Keep smiling you two, we love you.

[Catty1]

OK, now if the three of use could meet up and have a Christmas dinner bash...

My dear Mom pointed out today that the really nasty COLD weather has some people feeling down.

I have started taking my iron tabs again, kinda lapsed on those.

Gayle, wanna meet at Starbucks next week? PM me! Parking downtown will be easy, everyone will be at the malls! LOL

Thanks, you two - my head KNOWS I have much to be grateful for, but I have been fighting this tailspin for a few days. It ain't fun.

{{{{{hugs}}}}}}

[Queen of Poop]

Well, if we're going to have dinner it needs to be at Richards! He'd never survive here in the -30oC temps!!

But I'll gladly do the turkey, with granny's secret stuffing recipe.

Starbucks sounds great, lets see how the roads go, it is supposed to snow Monday! Like we need more. I have drifts here that are up to my thigh, mind you, I'm pretty short!!

[Catty1]

Gayle, just hold up a sign with your name on it...I'll dig you out of the drift! lol

Actually, I have a computer call here in Cochrane Monday morning, and am hoping to get a block heater installed in the afternoon.

Tuesday?

How's that Sasha doing? Not enjoying walks in this weather, I am sure.