This past week and today have been so emotional for us. To back up, Mark's Mom was diagnosed with multiple myeloma (bone cancer) back in 1998. We thank God for every day, and especially for the 3 years that she has out-lived the Dr.'s predictions.

Well, in the last 2 weeks, she has gone downhill so drastically. You almost cannot recognize her, and today she admitted that she is nearing the end. She is suffering so much, and it just tears me apart inside. It also tears me apart to watch Dad, usually so strong. And he is struggling so much. (She has lost 15 pounds since Thursday)

They found another (she has had 2 previously) vertebrae that has exploded/shattered from the cancer. Radiation helped with the first two, but this time she has no strength or resources to withstand it. So, Friday was her last day of radiation, and she isn't going to take anymore. Basically, she is at home waiting out the time.


I cried the whole way home, and now my head hurts. I have no-one to talk to that understands. I have to be strong for Mark, and strong for his family.

I don't know what to do. Money can't buy what we need, all we can give is our time.

Please, God, help us through this time. Please, God......