My mom just called me and told me my grandmother is in the hospital yet again, with fluid in her lungs. They were full 70% with fluid. I guess the medicine that they were giving her to thin her blood made her worse. This just makes me sad, because I have only ever met my grandmother twice. Once when I was a little girl, and do not recall any of it, and once when I was 17. I do not know any of my family, and it really really sucks to say the least. I have never met any of my cousins, uncles etc. I have met one aunt, my aunt Counsuelo, but that was for her wedding when I was 17, the same time I met my grandmother.
Now that I have kids, and especially since I have had Kai, family is becoming a much bigger part of my life. I just do not understand how my family thinks. I talk to my sister almost every day, though I haven't seen her in years. But I make it a point to talk with her, so that we do not become "lost" like everyone else in my family has. I do not know anyone else who has never met their aunts or uncles or cousins. Heck, I haven't even seen my mom in years!!!
No one has come to visit Kai since he was born, and he will be a year this coming May. My mom has only seen Dylan about three times, the last time when he was about 9 months old. It's just not right. I don't understand why people do not care. My family takes trips to California all the time, and they have seen my brother and his son several times, but everyone just leaves us hanging. It really upsets me. Now, the grandmother I hardly know is passing away. Am I supposed to feel sad? I do not know this women. What makes me sad is the fact that I did not have the chance to get to know her before she dies. Not only that, but my children will never have the chance to see their great-grandparents. Heck, I would be surprised if they will even know who their grandparents are. My father has only seen Dylan once, when he was 4 months old, and has not seen Kai either. I'm just very sad about it.
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