Who To Decide?! (Decided) ..(Dropped).

[sandragonfly]

my felinefurriends, I beg god to help me decide and cry everytime I think who to give away to a good home. sorry this will be a bit long . . girlfriends & gary, need your gentle help!

having over ten cats was quite a bit out of my budget but always have found a way to keep them because I love them to sky - something you would do to keep something you cherish so much. I'm like a fly trap where a fly once sticks to me and dies with me. most horrible thoughts to myself if I gave them away to somewhere (good) and wonder in all my life if they are still okay, being taken care of (as much as I do!), alive and around.. I see I am partly selfish but also, hate to face the truth that it would be a best solution for some of them.

anyway, long story short - eight, (actually ten now) was my limit number (being a travel student and enough attention for every one of them got out of hands sometimes), until I found and rescued my 9th cat (star) out on the street and she had four babies so I had had 13. (12 now, one died recently) my rule was and still, I am not going to give those last few away, unless it is to a good, trustworthy family/friend I know. so they forever could be part of my life too. because some aren't good with keeping in touch, some would stick with policies - you can't share information about this cat, etc. that scares me - kills me if I've let them take away a piece of my heart nowhere and never see them again ..

so.. well, one of great families I know for about four years now (a couple and two young respectful children), who recently lost their second cat.. would love to have two of mine. (so they can keep each other buddies and that would be it!) problem is - I couldn't decide who.. except for those first eight who I went through the progress of adoptions and promised them a furrever home .. with me! I'm stuck now.

I'm having hard, painfully hard time to decide if I shouldn't fail or who they can take. . . I have no favorites or preferences! and I had them all for over a year - they all are DEAR to me. oh, now I'm weeping LIKE a baby.. god help me.

what would you do??



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edited - see below who I've decided ..(05-15-2006 at 01:55 AM)