Sigh. Look what just found me. *Update 11/8* post #58

[Medusa]

I'm so sorry.

Why on earth would they automatically euthanize because of FeLeuk? Many, many cats live long, healthy lives with it.

Who would have taken him? I couldn't risk my Fur Posse's health and the foster family have 6 of their own and 19 fosters, one of which is FIV positive and is in isolation. We've been trying for months to find him a home but no one will take him. Someone who has no pets more than likely won't want an FeLV or FIV cat either. If I had kept him, he would've been awfully lonely because he would've been isolated in my garage and he was too friendly for that. I'm just heartsick over this. I got so excited, like a little girl, and even still, I looked at the grocery store, pharmacy, etc. for posters saying "lost cat" just in case he was a runaway, praying all the while that no one would come forward. I can't recall when I've seen a sweeter cat. Why is it that the ones who appear to be the healthiest are the ones who aren't? And the sickest ones that we think probably won't make it, do?

[jennielynn1970]

Oh my gosh. How tragic.

He could have lived a healthy life for quite a long time.

Play hard at the bridge sweetie. You left too soon.


eta: I know it would have been next to impossible to find him a foster home with FeLV. it's just so sad for both you and the kitty.

[Anikaca77]

Oh Mary. It is never easy but you have to think that you gave him so much joy in that little time. Mary please know my prays are with you.

Melissa

[GILL]

I am so so sorry for you.

[Catty1]

Oh no...I don't even want to read the update.

RIP sweet handsome boy; you were loved, you were loved.

[Queen of Poop]

This is just so darn sad. I can't stop crying for you both. I am so sorry.

[phesina]

I am so very, very sorry.

Hugs to you, Mary.

Love, Pat and cats

[jenluckenbach]

I am SO sorry.

[Emeraldgreen]

I'm so sorry!! This is awful.
If you hadn't taken him in, he would have had a very cold winter on his own. At least he knew love and affection before leaving this earth.

[RICHARD]

Ugh, cannot even put my thoughts into words.

Good vibes sent out your way.

[Moesha]

How terribly sad. I saw the post in the memorial thread first and had no idea what had happened. I'm so sorry!

[krazyaboutkatz]

I'm just now reading this thread and I'm so sorry to hear this. RIP sweet Buddy.

[Medusa]

I went to bed early; the ordeal just exhausted me, but I didn't sleep well and finally gave up at 4:30 AM and got up. Thought I might sleep in this morning but no luck. This thing is haunting me. I have a sick feeling that Buddy wasn't FeLV at all. I think that they rushed his neutering and that he died on the operating table. I have nothing to base it on, just instinct. They don't do intake on Fridays, they were squeezing me in as a favor. Four years ago, when I was finishing rescue and moving into this house, I still had several cats to alter and place and one of them, Sox, died while being spayed. The vet was very cold about it all; she called me and I thought she was going to tell me when I could pick Sox up but instead she said "Your cat died". Period. Boom. It turned out that Sox had a URI and she knew it but did the surgery anyhow. I didn't know it; she wasn't sniffly or anything or I wouldn't have taken the chance. I know that some vets do what they call Good Samaritan work but some resent it and she was one of them. I never went to her again. I just have the feeling deep in my gut that's what happened to Buddy. This isn't to disparage vets; God knows I love mine, even if I do have issues w/the staff on occasion. Buddy just looked and acted too darned healthy and I feel a big gaping hole in this house. It was made ready for him. I was even prepared for pee wars w/my males but this boy softened my heart to the point where I thought "Hmmm, Pidge isn't gonna like having Buddy in bed w/us but he's such a snuggler that I can't resist him". This whole thing just isn't sitting right w/me.

[pomtzu]

This thing is haunting me. I have a sick feeling that Buddy wasn't FeLV at all. I think that they rushed his neutering and that he died on the operating table. I have nothing to base it on, just instinct. This whole thing just isn't sitting right w/me.

Aw Mary, please don't feel that way. You can't beat yourself up over this. Perhaps it's just that you've been thru so much these past few months with Puddy and Pidge, that has you feeling very vulnerable right now. You'll never know for sure if this is what happened - just know that you did what was right and best for Buddy - and know that he is happy and healthy at The Bridge. Puddy will tell him all about you and what a wonderful cat Mommy you are.

[phesina]

My very deepest sympathy, Mary.