Megan if it helps to come to PT and talk about it, then please keep doing so, everyone here just wants to offer you support in any way they can.

I am distressed to hear you are still having such problems, although I have no real answers sweetie, I can only assume your mother is going through some deep problems herself, and unfortunately is taking it out on you.

I don't know your mother, but I am sure she loves you very much, she probably just is not capable of showing you how much right now, and deep down inside could hate herself for what she is doing, I am sure she must be a caring, loving person, as look at the daughter she has produced.

All I can say is hang in there, and find an outlet to help you through the tough times, and pm me anytime, an ear here to listen and a shoulder to cry on whenever ok. Take care and HUGS.