I am so sorry to read this , and how much distress you are in, We here at PT are there for you anytime, please know that, this is indeed a very stressful and agonising time for you, and everyone of us feels your pain,so many have experienced it and can offer you such love and warmth and understanding, so please post as often as needed , we are all here with an available shoulder to cry on.

I wish we could ease your heartache, but if knowing we all care and are here to help, makes you feel a little better, then thats what is important.

This is very sad, for all of you, just want to send you my love and HUGS, and let you know you are not far from my daily thoughts. Take care.