I am very sorry to hear of your traumatic experience, and I really hope you are surrounded with love from your family and friends, who will indeed help you through this tough time, sweetie I know its hard, but nothing or no-one is worth taking your life for, sometimes life gets on top of us, and it feels so bad, but believe me its never quite as bad as we think at the time, I am relieved to hear this has made you realise how loving your family and friends really are.
Please feel free to pm me anytime, if you are feeling low, I would like to help in anyway possible, I sure hope the pills you have will make you feel better too.
TAKE CARE AND BIG HUGS TO YOU.