Carole, don't blame yourself for what happened. Cats are incredibley forgiving. In fact, when you bring her home she will probably be so happy to be back in her home again. I remember nearly 27 years ago, I had a Maine Coon tabby cat. One day while getting his food ready, I accidently kicked his jaw and broke it. He went into hiding for about 2 days, before he would come out. Talk about feeling sick ..... He learned not to get under my feet when I fed him after that episode.