I read this earlier and wanted to respond, but I was too depressed to post a reply. I'm so glad I read your post. It made me realize that what I'm going through now and how much I miss Joey could be worse. I know(please God and keeping my fingers crossed) that I'll see Joey in a year maybe shorter or longer, however you miss your friend who you won't have a chance to see again. I'm so very sorry for your loss. I've been doing the crying/depression thing ever since we parted and your post made me put it into perspective.

I've posted this before, but I'm not sure what posts others read..Joey is my fiance' who is in the Marine Corps whose battalion just got deployed overseas for a year. I know it's suppossed to get easier with time, but it's so hard. I smell his cologne in the bathroom, hear the squeaky brakes when someone pulls up and think it's him. He jeep always had squeaky brakes no matter how much he worked on them. I know it's silly and I know it's not him pulling into the drive, yet I still hope.

I hate that question, "how are you doing" It seems like no one wants to hear the real answer. If you were to say how depressed you are or start going into how much that person means to you, they don't want to hear it. The expected response is I'm ok, I'm fine, or I'm coping. Any other answer they don't want to hear...just too depressing.

Anyway what I'm trying to get at, post whatever you want. There will always be someone here to listen. I'm so very sorry for your loss. No advice here, but always willing to listen. ((hugs))