it really is a shame that you are not allowed a pet, and i empathise with you, you really were a great cat man, and i know you miss that bond,maybe you should do some volunteer work at a shelter if you are up to it, and then you will have that cuddles you so long for, but then again it might be too hard to do, i know i just don't have it in me , i would become way too attached,and you have to learn to remove yourself emotionally somewhat .

Sorry Bro there is not a simple answer to your longings,just know i am thinking of you and my kitties are here for a virtual cuddle anytime.