Tough times....now pain behind knee...trying positive thinking

[Karen]

Prayers and coupons on the way!

[Anikaca77]

Thank you so much Karen!!

melissa

[Anikaca77]

I updated the post in the Cat General section incase you want to know about what happened with him.

I don't know what's going to happen between my husband and I though. Things are not going well at all and I really can't afford to move out at all. Things are just complicated and I just don't know. I'm so depressed today and upset. I'm seeing my counselor at 1 p.m. today and I really hate to come back to work after that appt because I'm sure I'll be crying.

I'm trying so hard to make our marriage work. I just don't know. We have 10 cats and we would each take 5 most likely because I couldnt' afford anymore that's for than the 5 it would be so rough with just taking 5 but Claudia and Ashley were mine from the beginning so they would have to go with me, then Ozzy he's more mine and he'd have to come along, then Athena fits well in the circle too so she'd go and Sophia would go too but she loves Sebastian so much, last night (this seems to have nightly now, when I turn off the living room lights (sometimes I sleep out on the couch because the kitten can't stand to not have someone to sleep with even though there are other kitties, it's just not good enough for him, plus sometimes it helps sleeping out on the couch instead of in the bed)...anyway, so when I turn off the lights and it's completely dark in the living room, Sebastian will start to meow like he's kooing or something and Sophia will go over to him as if it's a mating call or something and rub her butt on him and what not, she's fixed and they just started doing this in Feb maybe. They love eachother so much that I'd hate to split them up but it would be better for her to go with the group. It's not final yet but I just don't know how things are going to change. He's giving me one last shot to make it work but I just don't know if I'm up for it again or not.

Melissa

[Catty1]

I hope maybe both of you can see a counsellor to work this out. It's fine that he's giving you one last shot - but I hope he is doing his part too.

{{{{hugs}}}}

[Anikaca77]

No he won't go see anyone, we tried it once and found out that they (my counselor and ours) thought it was best that he go into this own counseling and I go into my own and then later do a group one.

I know he's frustrated since it's been so many years of this stuff and I don't want to fight with him either. It's just so unfair right now, and I just ended up brusting out and crying at work again.

Just breathe...I'm trying to remember that.

melissa

[Queen of Poop]

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry. I feel so badly for you. Sending you a GREAT BIG HUG!!!!!

As everyone tells me, hang in there. It's a useless statement and doesn't make me feel any better. What I'd like to hear and what I'm telling you now is: You will be ok. It is not the end of the world. Yep, it surely sucks. But there will be a light at the end of the tunnel after you're thru all the crap.

[Anikaca77]

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry. I feel so badly for you. Sending you a GREAT BIG HUG!!!!!

As everyone tells me, hang in there. It's a useless statement and doesn't make me feel any better. What I'd like to hear and what I'm telling you now is: You will be ok. It is not the end of the world. Yep, it surely sucks. But there will be a light at the end of the tunnel after you're thru all the crap.

Have you ever seen Under the Tuscan Sun....my situation isn't like her's really because he's never cheated on me and he's not seeing anyone but it just seems we can't stop fighting and he just keeps saying if I'd stop my pissy tone then things would be fine. I'm not sure if it's from growing up in a yelling house all the time and I just didn't know how to express myself right and now I'm just not doing things right. This is my first real relationship, we met in March 2005 and got married in April 2007.

I can't believe it's been this long and it's a long time but at the same time it seems to have just flown by so quickly.

My grandfather (my mom's dad), he lost his wife (my grandmother) last July, and he told me yesterday that love is the greatest gift, I wanted to cry because although I do love my husband very much and he loves me things just keep not working out (my grandfather doesn't know my husband and I are having really bad problems).

We went over to my dad's mom's place for easter dinner yesterday and she asked me where my husband was and of course I started to cry and luckly it was only in front of my mom and dad and my sister, so I had to go to the bathroom and my grandmother came in and said she was sorry she didn't know, I told her we are having bad problems right now and that we are trying to work on them but I just don't know. She told me if he is saying divorce to just say goodbye, she said he won't get very far without me, but he will because in about a week he'll be looking for another person to replace me I believe.

Luckily, I have my counseling appt. at 1 p.m so I can cry all I need to then and then have to come back to work and try not to cry.

Melissa