Quote Originally Posted by Queen of Poop View Post
I have to say I'm not having trouble getting out of bed. That could be because I'm sleeping on an air mattress on the floor. Best I could do at this time. I am hoping the divorce settlement will get me some furniture so I didn't want to buy other stuff. I am also a serious morning person, up between 4 and 5 every day. Cali and Diego have no qualms about making sure I know they're hungry too.

My biggest issue now are the memories that won't stop popping into my head. I am hopeful that when I see the counsellor next week she can help me deal with them and the sheer unbelief of how my life has gone. It wasn't supposed to be like this.

All the Christmas commercials on TV are killing me these days. They make me so sad. Christmas was always made a big thing by me for him and his kids. Now I don't know what to do. This one's going to be hard.
You're right Gayle, this time of year is particularly hard to deal with.
I 'made' Christmas too, for him and his family who have always come down from Ohio, for the last 12 years. (his family spent 6-8 weeks a year at our place, in fact)

I don't want to see the decorations or hear the Christmas music, but it is next to impossible, if you even consider being in a public place.


I don't know what I'll do. It is so sad, not going to get that real Christmas tree, but I know I don't want to do it now.

Won't you spend the Holidays with your parents, Gayle?

I hope your counsellor session goes well and gives you some relief and guidance.