Well,

I went to read the settlement document over today. Didn't make it very far before bursting into tears.


We, Rosemary Lupo Rottmayer and Christopher Allen Rottmayer, being sworn, certify that the following statements are true:

1. We were married to each other on February 22, 1998.
2. Because of irreconcilable differences in our marriage (no chance of staying together), we have made this agreement to settle once and for all what we owe to each other and what we can expect to receive from each other.

I am SO sad.

I am still staggered by the swiftness and ease with which he discarded me.

I am getting to the point, with friends I've spoken with, are telling me to: not to be angry, or hateful. Not to let it ruin my life. I have to go out and try new things (I have crippling introversion)
None of that is appealing right now.
The reality is that no one can know how empty my life feels right now.

Gayle I'm happy there is a book out there that addresses what you've gone through. I cannot IMAGINE. And your therapy session sounds hopeful too.
Thinking of you.

This part is for you Richard-
A positive step. Trying to get tough....

With the Holidays rapidly approaching, and me not wanting to celebrate nor have them pass as any ordinary day. I am going to volunteer to feed the needy somewhere. At the very least, I can be helpful to someone.