sg - I appreciate the thought - really, I do.

BUT - LOL - a bit ot - shepgirl, I tossed my anti-depressant meds many times over the decades, figuring the right vitamins/faith/etc (lots of etc!) would do it.

I hit the bloody wall every single time...I would be ok for a little bit, and then BANG! Like slamming into a cinder block wall gut first.

I am 52...and three years ago, I finally decided to stop arguing. Raised the white flag...and can live better in my own head again, and people around me don't have to wonder when I am going to snap, or why I am so 'flat' and leaden in personality.

Just to repeat what I posted to Reggie a few posts back:
Reggie - a person's intelligence has nothing to do with whether they can fix themselves or not.

It's like intelligent people being able to cure their own cancer. It doesn't happen that way. Brain chemistry is physical, physiological.

I have a B.A., made the Dean's list one year, have travelled several countries as a musician, recorded a CD with my own songs on it - and am on two medications for life because my brain chemistry needs help to keep me centred.

Brains ain't got nothing to do with it.
It's like diabetes of the brain...it doesn't show physical symptoms like Parkinson's. But that horrid disease is due to brain chemistry as well. A patient with Parkinson's would not dream of looking back and tossing their meds. It's the same thing. Really.