Just need to vent and cry

[Ginger's Mom]

More hugs coming your way, Lori. You are a very strong and loving daughter. I am not sure I could do what you are doing. As has been mentioned by others dementia can change a person so much, because they don't understand what is going on themselves. I am glad that you also have a caretaker to help with some of the day to day things. You have taken on a big responsibility and you can feel free to vent any time you would like.

[catnapper]

I'm so sorry ((((HUGS))))


I can only imagine the stress you're feeling. Please know you can vent here any time you want.

[jazzcat]

Thanks for all the hugs and letting me vent.

[krazyaboutkatz]

Lori, I'm sorry you're having to go through all of this. Please feel free to vent here any time. We're all here to offer you emotional support. Please take care. (((HUGS)))

[Cookiebaker]

just wanted to send along a couple of big {{{hugs}}}. Im so sorry about your dad

[kuhio98]

I'm so sorry. I don't know what it has to be like this when we get older. My father-in-law was a very kind, generous man. With dementia, he got angry, stingy and mean. I think they're so confused. For some reason they think they're being taken advantaged of. Sigh...........

Any chance that you can get a break next summer? I know your siblings live far away, but could 1 or 2 of them plan their vacation in your area? Let them spend some time with him and give you a break.

[Pam]

More hugs coming your way, Lori. You are a very strong and loving daughter.

More hugs from me too. My mom is even older than your dad and suffers from dementia also. She lives in a nursing home 50 miles from me. It is in the town where she has been living since 1968 and she is there because originally I thought it the best place to be in order for her to have a flow of visitors. Now, years later, I wish she lived closer but I don't want to upset her world and the care there is second to none.

My mom also worried about her possessions early on. I feel that they are a link to the past and happier times. She would occasionally misplace things and think someone stole them. That is not at all uncommon. These days she knows who I am part of the time, but most of the time does not. Your dad is fortunate to still be able to live on his own and get some enjoyment out of his garden. I believe that when they lose interest in things they go downhill rapidly. It is a very sad thing, indeed, to watch a loved one decline like this. I have watched the Alzheimers patients at this facility and there is a clear distinction between dementia and Alzheimers from what I have observed. The dementia patients are just very confused and forgetful while the Alzheimers patients are living more in their own world and can become very combative. It is heartbreaking to visit there at times because I know that each and every one of these people at one time was living a full and happy life. I can totally understand the stress and sadness you describe and invite you to vent and cry any time at all. I doubt that I could carry the load you are carrying. (((hugs)))

[Randi]

Lori, I can't add much but here's a big hug from me too. I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I remember how exhausting it was with my parents. Try to keep strong and have a good cry when you need to. When your dad is gone, you'll feel so much better for having been there for him.


Big (((hugs))))

[Medusa]

A burden shared is a burden lightened. (((HUGS))) to you.

[lizbud]

I'm glad you decided to share this. Our family went through these same
problems as my Mom got older. Like you, it was my younger sister who did
the most checking in & visiting with her because she lived just a few minutes
away. It can get to be a very sad experience as we notice subtle changes
in behavior.

Finally, we had to all have a family meeting & made the decision that Mom should be
introduced to a "assisted living". We found a great place where she had
her own apartment & neighbors to visit when she wanted to be social.

[Catty1]

jazzcat - you can vent here anytime!

I know you and your family decided that your dad would live in his own home until the end, and that is fair.

But Lizbud brought up another point - would your dad be a bit happier living where he could meet people and get more social contact? OR - is there a seniors day program that could take him out every day, leaving the burden mostly to weekends?

At some point - not right now - you may want to look at what you and your siblings want versus what is best for your dad.

It's not easy, not at all. My mom is 75 going on 40 - but I still wonder if I will have to deal with anything like this, and when...

{{{hugs}}}

[kimlovescats]

(((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))) Lori! I'm just now seeing this. E-mail me!

[mamaducky]

Wow -- I'm so sorry you're going through this with your Dad. It reminds me so much of how it was with my Grandpa as his dementia progressed -- when he was himself, he'd give the proverbial shirt off his back to anyone in need, but as things got worse, he was convinced that his caregiver (a beloved niece) was stealing from him. (The stuff she had supposedly "stolen" was pretty ludicrous -- a broken radio, corroded batteries...) Sometimes, when Grandpa would come back to himself a little bit, even he would laugh at how ridiculous some of his claims were -- but those times were the exception rather than the rule.

This has got to be heartbreaking and exhausting for you -- and though you never even drop so much as a hint in that direction, if it were me, I'd be feeling as though I were getting an unfair amount of the burden just because of my geographical location. (Like I said, you NEVER bring that up, Lord love you. )

I'm not going to offer you any advice, but I will be keeping you and your entire family in my prayers. You are an absolutely wonderful person for handling this situation with so much love and grace.

Big hugs,
Diana