We had a terrible night i was up most of it with her she is finally sleeping now she was having nightmares last night i went into her room she was standing in the dark looking out her window saying she sees alyse hanging off our tree's i started crying i cannot imagine this how her thoughts are right now so we went outside and she seen that there was nothing there she says Alyse is trying to tell her something?I have never delt with this in my life and i appologize if i might sound selfish im scared that Becca will never be able to overcome some things this was her dearest best friend they have been friends since the two of them have been in diapers i can not imagine i have had friends killed in car wrecks and one friend murderd but suicide is something totaly different the loosing part is the same i now kinda wish Becca did not know how she did it am i bad for thinking this?Im so confused and heart broken that my baby girl has to go through this and the funeral is on Monday we are going i think it would be good for her to say goodbye but will it hurt her in the long run,Now Alyse was such a good kid she was always there when becca needed someone to talk to when she was having problems at school Becca says she owes it to her i want whatever Becca wants im just scared of what will happen after the service.Thank you all so much for all your kindness!!!