I am so sorry to hear about your health issues. I hope that you will be able to find a support group with other members who are having trouble dealing with the emotional issues of not being able to conceive. All my life, all I ever wanted was to have a child. But now at 44, I realize that my options are very limited. I, too, go through a very difficult time each time I hear of someone being pregnant or a new baby being born. I can relate to what you are feeling. I have opted to not go to baby showers because I know I will have a hard time controlling my emotions. I just send a gift and make an excuse for not being able to attend.

I was married for about 8 years, and we were never able to conceive. (Long story, but nothing is wrong with me physically that I could not conceive.) Now I am single again, with no prospects in sight, and each birthday that passes the realization becomes greater that I will never be a parent. BUT.... I agree with many others on here that you could consider adoption or even IVO. I know they are costly, and that you say there could be some issues preventing you from adopting, but please, do not give up.

I know that some of the adoption services (especially international) offer monetary assistance to families. Also, I know of one (single) lady who took out a second mortgage on her home to be able to adopt her daughter from Guatemala! She knows she will pay on it for years to come but also knows that it is worth it!

I have another friend whos brother and sister-in-law could not conceive, and they found a surrogate! She was a family friend who had 3 children of her own and offered to help them by carrying their baby. Baby Jack is now almost 3!

Keep the faith. Pray. And He will help you.

God bless you.