Aww Megan , i cannot believe you are having this kind of stuff happening to you all the time, I know you say you hate your mom and you have good reason to , but knowing you as I do you really love her and that is why you worry so much about her, it is extremely sad to see she does not have the maturity that her own daughter does and cannot return the love and care that you bestow upon her, she is so fortunate to have such a wonderful daughter and she does not even know it, honestly hon i could kick her butt from here to eternity,but none of that helps you right now.

Just know you have many PT moms who love you dearly, and wish they could do something to help,try to concentrate on your own life sweetie and enjoy the happy times and remember it is natural for you to care about your mother,because you are a wonderful giving young woman with a wise shoulder on her head wise beyond her years.

I don't understand why you mother does what she does, and why she appears to be so darn selfish,and i wish with all my heart she would open her darn eyes and start making some changes for the better, but until then if that ever happens, you have a life to live of your own Megan and you are way too young to have these worries on your shoulders, share them with your dad and stepmom and us here and help us to lighten the load, a worry shared is a worry halfed so they say.

I think writing your feelings down is a great idea, even if you do not give it to her, it will help you a lot.

HUGS and love to you Megan, you know we all love and care about you, and pm me anytime okey dokey .