I'm so sorry. I'm religious in a way that I don't go to church, but I do pray. I don't know what your views on religion are, but God only gives us what we can handle. When things seem too overwhelming I think about that and it helps. Also, in some ways you should be grateful because there are people with more problems than you. I hope those thoughts can comfort you.

I will be thinking about you and Sebastian. I hope everything will get better from now on.