I am sorry sweetie you are feeling like this, I know how hard it is when everything seems to be getting on top of you, try and see if you can get your hubby to open up and talk, maybe that is all he needs to do, a problem shared is a problem halved so they say, you yourself are doing something that is very difficult and he needs to be able to offer you support, that is the trouble when both of you are dealing with issues neither of you can support each other, is there anyone else who can help you and someone you can talk to, we are all here at PT and if it helps to beable to talk about it with us, then we are more than happy to be here for you, HUGS sweetie and remember it will pass, it is just a tough time sent to challenge you, you will get through it I am sure, if any of us can help to make it easier then we will do our best.