Oh believe me I do feel a lot better, I have a spring in my step now, lol, I just cannot get overly excited because i have been here so many times in my life, however for once I stablised my weight for two years, true it was not the right weight for me to be at, but still better than re-gaining , which I did two years ago, I lost ten kgs for my niece's wedding then re-gained 8 of them over winter, but kept it at that for the last two years, I just want to get it all off this time and keep it off permanently, an almost impossible task for me, but I am determined more than ever, I have health issues that need addressing and I know loosing it will help those, I am also at high risk for Breast Cancer and being overweight just adds another risk, so that and the fact I am extremely unhappy being anything than at my goal weight, I just have to do it once and for all.

I hope this will help motivate some people because that is what it is all about, until you get motivated and get on the wagon, you just end up on the continual downslide, the vicious cycle rears its ugly head, the more down you feel about your situation the more you eat.

Now i just have to motivate myself to exercise more and tone up, hmm now that will really be an achievement in itself, BTW i do have my son for support, he is in training for his cricket season, and works out at a gym, he tends to gain some weight over the winter too and he has to work hard to loose it again, a familiar pattern I see here with him too, yoe-yoe syndrome which is not a good thing, but he is hoping one day to become a personal Trainer, if and when he puts his mind to it, and he helps me with doing exercises targeting certain muscles, but I still don't do them very often., I am the sort of person that finds exercise hard, due to aching muscles daily having fibromyalgia, but when I actually get in the mood and do them and stick with it I become hopelessly addicted to it, but to me that is far better than my food addiction and one I would rather replace it with.