Please pray for me

**K9soul** · 10-04-2005, 12:39 PM

There just aren't any adequate words to place a value on the friendship and outpouring of caring and support I have received from many of you. Honestly, I am not sure where I'd be at without the strength some of you have helped me to find. It's still very difficult for me to share a lot about what is going on, but I also think it is probably pretty obvious that it has to do with my marriage. I still can't go a lot into the very personal aspects of it, I've never had the ability to easily pour my heart out in a public setting when it comes to personal pains. Suffice it to say, I've been blinding myself to some things, and things have been held back on both our parts due to wanting to avoid the pain that's going on.

I know many will wonder about something in particular, so I will say it straight out, there has been no affair involved in this. As of today, we're in a talking phase, now that I've managed to get more of a grip and find the ability to stay calm (at least around him). But I'm frightened, crushed, and hurt beyond the scope of any words to describe. I'm scared to death, of just everything right now. I know some of you have experienced various things of a similar nature, and have an idea of what it's like. It's the initial shock that scars you.. when you think things are good, and learn they aren't. A shock like that is something stays in your heart forever, even after things have resolved in whatever way they will.

Please just keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I'm so emotionally vulnerable right now, but I'm getting all the help I can. Thank you. Thank God for people like you out there.

Jess

**Logan** · 10-04-2005, 12:44 PM

You are SO loved, Jess.

**Ginger's Mom** · 10-04-2005, 12:51 PM

Jess, I too woke up thinking about you this morning (though not as early as Logan). You are a very strong and caring person Jessica, and I know that you will be able to get through whatever is coming your way. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. {{{Hugs}}}

**shais_mom** · 10-04-2005, 01:01 PM

we are here for you anytime Jess.

**lizbud** · 10-04-2005, 01:03 PM

You are in my thoughts & prayers as well. I know how emotionally
devastating these problems can be when your world is turned upside
down.

I pray that ,with time, you can find peace in your heart and
mind. Hang in there.

**Laura's Babies** · 10-04-2005, 01:18 PM

I have been keeping up with this thread and wanted you to know that I am thinking about you also. Put it in God's hands and He will take care of you. Keep the faith and in trusting Him!

**Kater** · 10-04-2005, 01:52 PM

Jessica,
I just wanted to let you know that you've been on my heart and mind. It hurts me deeply to know that such a softhearted person is in so much pain. Again, I just wish there was more I could do. I want you to feel free to contact me as well, anytime you need to - I will PM you my details.
I am praying for your continued strength during this trial and I hope that you can find peace and happiness soon.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}} across the miles.
Kate

**finn's mom** · 10-04-2005, 02:43 PM

Originally Posted by K9soul

Honestly, I am not sure where I'd be at without the strength some of you have helped me to find.

Jess, you said it all right there. If you didn't have the strength in you to begin with, no amount of love from anyone is going to implant it. You are a strong personk, even if you are vulnerable right now. The fact that you can articulate that shows strength lacking in many people. If it takes a hundred of us to keep telling you it's there, and, to help you pull from your inner strength, you know we'll keep on it.

I'm glad that you were able to post, Jess. Thank you. Kari

**beeniesmom** · 10-04-2005, 02:51 PM

I know you will make it through this difficult time.
Hugs

**Daisy and Delilah** · 10-04-2005, 10:36 PM

Again Jess, we're still here for you whenever you need us. Just make sure you come in and let us know how you're doing when you feel like it. You're always in my thoughts and prayers. Terry

**Almita** · 10-04-2005, 10:41 PM

We are here whenever you need us Jess! You will be in my prayers and will be thinking about you! {{HUGS}}

**gini** · 10-04-2005, 10:43 PM

After many many years of marriage - I found one day that I had been turned upside down and dropped on my head. I don't know how else to express it.
It was so horrific and painful. But I lived - I picked myself up - took care of the horrible bruise - and went forward with my life.

I say these few things because I want you to know that I truly do understand.

You have more than my prayers................and if I can help you - I would be happy to send you my email address.

God be with you now!!

**wolfie** · 10-05-2005, 08:50 PM

Jess, I just thought I'd let you know I am still thinking of you. *hugs*

**slick** · 10-05-2005, 10:46 PM

Jessica...I'm sorry I have not been as active on PT as I would like to be and am just now reading your reply.

I wish I could offer some advice but you see, I've never been married. I have had a long term relationship that broke up in 1987 and that was painful enough and I've remained single since then.

Sending more {{{hugs}}} and prayers your way. With the love and support of all PT'ers and God, you will get through this.

xoxo