I am so sorry you're having such a rough time. I wish there were something we all could do for you. You might want to print out all the threads here of what you've been going through as evidence. It's got the dates that you wrote them and all. I hope it really gets better soon because I know it can't be much worse. You might contact a support group to see if they have a certain attorney in mind for your case, too. Good luck. We're all here for you.