Sorry to hear of this Paula. The only bit of advice I might offer is to perhaps see a church minister. Now I know this isn't for everyone, but my experience with this, stems from my brother-in-law who is a minister of the Uniting Church. He is an absolute genius to talk to, as quite often you know the answer, but he just helps you to reach the conclusion. I know that my bother-in-law has helped family's in a similar situation to yours, so it could be worth looking in to. It all boils down to finding someone you can trust totally, and who will help yopu resolve the situation with your parents. I agree with Carole, in that they do love you, but have been really scared. Unfortunately this could be the reason why the behaviour has manifested into the anger they have shown. My closest sister tried to take her life, quite a few years ago now, but it took me a long time to be able to trust her again. The self doubt that awashes you in that situation is enormous, and I admit I was very angry with my sister. But things worked out, she got on with her life, and our bond is as strong as ever.