Wow, I agree with alot of your posts. I get really angry sometimes, and really sad, but in the past couple months, I've taken a turn for the better. I'm really happy with myself, and I am truly trying to live each day to the fullest. I (now) live so that I will make it into heaven with God.

I have basically turned my thoughts upside down. I now am trying to do so many things to make life better. I am (trying to) organize my time better, eat healthier, and make others happy. I am trying to be kind to everyone, whereas before I thought not much of it, but I am basically trying to live by the golden rule now.

My answer would have been much different if you asked me a few months ago. It would have been, I live for Major. Well, back then, that was ALL I lived for.

Now I live for so much more. I live for him still, of course, he helps me alot with organizing my time. But I live to make others happy, to go outside and watch the sky, to hear thunder and watch lightning. To sit out on a peaceful night, looking at the stars, one of my absolute favorite things to do. I love nature, I love Major, I love my friends and I live for that.

I am learning to appreciate simple things, and I really think that is the key to happiness. As my mom would quote my grandpa, "People are as happy as they want to be"

I really think that your outlook on life has a lot to do with how you live. I feel much more alive now that I have come to realize many things.

You only have so little time on earth. I think you have to do what makes you happy. What makes me happy is making other people happy, and basically thats it. That can be broken into so many things.

Walking Major - makes him happy, makes me happy.
Getting good grades - makes my family happy, makes me happy.
Working without complaining - same as above.

I realize that I could have everything I ever wanted, but if my family is mad at me, especially my parents, I'm not happy. If I get the newest digital camera, a laptop in my room, the shirt I've been dying to get, and my mom is extremely pissed at me? No, I don't feel happy.

So, my advice is find what makes you truly happy, and do it.