Annie from your post it does indeed sound like you have depression, because otherwise your life sounds very normal and in general very happy, it can appear to other's we have everything we need and want in life, but there can still be something missing, sometimes we don't even know what it is ourselves.

We all have those low times, when we get down in the dumps, maybe bored even with our mundane lives, and we all have our pity parties as Donna so eloquently put it lol, with or without the booze.

When you feel that way, nothing seems to make you feel happy, no matter what it is, it just takes time to get through it, and if that requires a little medical help then so be it,it just has to be that way.

I try hard to evaluate my life, and look at what I have got , rather than what I haven't or would like, I look at my two healthy children, my little modest but cute house, my two adorable cats, my caring hubby, and the fact I still have my two parents alive and count my blessings every day,sometimes I just have to focus on that, to help turn my mood around and it is not as easy as it sounds, I have been in that black hole many times myself, and I freely admit to letting those things go out of my mind in times like that, I have found coming here to PT a great outlet for my feelings, and always get some wonderful, motivating advice from all.

I hope we can all help you a little and bring you some comfort and inspiration to feel better.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, it just takes a bit of hard work to find it.

Take care and I hope you are feeling better about life soon, life really is good ya know., we just have to convince ourselves of that over and over again.