Hello everyone. I'm sorry it has taken me awhile to check back in. I have been completely overwhelmed by all the responses and at first I felt a bit embarrassed that I actually put this out there and I wasn't sure if I would even get any responses or if I even wanted any. I don't know if that makes any sense. All I know is that you have all touched my heart and I can never thank you enough. Thank you for all your kindness, your support, your pm's, your phone numbers and email addresses. It means everything to me.

I am still having a hard time but I am trying to solve this problem. I realize that it may take some time. I will get there though. Brandon is not the reason for my depression but he doesn't help the situation any. I tried to talk to him this evening, but I don't seem to get anywhere with him. He says he is sorry for talking to me like that and that he feels bad then he always adds the word BUT and tries to make it sound like its my fault that he talks to me that way. I can't get through to him. I tell him there are no "buts" that he shouldn't be talking to anyone like that. Of course instead of listening to me he wants to fight and I refuse to get into a screaming match with him. He is not a teenager he is 21 and definitely should know better. His girlfriend does not live here. She is here most of the time but she works and has school so she is usually heading home about 10 or so. I just don't know what to do about that boy of mine. I want him out of the house because I can't stand living with someone who seems to hate me so much and just takes advantage of me. Then that makes me feel terrible because I know he has no place to go right now and no money. He is trying to finish up school and be an IT Tech. Anyway the whole thing makes me feel like I was and am a lousy parent. OK, thats enough about him.

Once again, thank you all for being here for me! You are truly wonderful people.

Robin