Robilee I hope all these replys will help bring you some comfort, I am so sorry to hear how you are feeling right now, I think a lot of us have been in that black hole position before as well, and so we are all here for you in any way that will help to ease your difficulties right now.

As for you son, I can well understand, at that age they can be ever so selfish, it is just part of his growing up process , but he should show more respect, it is unkind for him to make you feel even worse, like the other's have said let him know how it makes you feel.

You have been through a great ordeal with your cancer battle, and you have been exceptionally brave IMO, you are to be commended for doing so well through such a tough experience, I think your anger is understandable considering all that you have been through and one that is a normal reaction.

I hope with some medication, love from your friends and support from your family and friends we can help pull you out of this deep dark place that no-one wants to be in, love and hugs Robilee, and remember you are a wonderful, caring person, who deserves only the best, Take care of YOU for once and concentrate on getting well, and make yourself number one priority, hard for a mother to do, but I think it is essential that you do for your well-being, I will be thinking of you and hoping your darkest moments are over soon.