Admitting that there is a problem is a huge first step, Robin. And I think we all know that you are not alone in this battle. Every time I read a post like yours I hurt for the one who has stepped up and admitted that there is a problem. I saw another one just this morning.

Robin, my initial thought when I read what you said about your job is that you absolutely do NOT need to quit your job. That is one thing that forces you out the door every single day. I'm no expert, but I know that you need that contact with the outside world. It forces you to get up, get dressed and leave the house.

Don't try to "fix" everything at one time. Focus on you right now and seeing this new doctor is a brilliant first step. You have been through so much in the past few years and I can remember how much I admired your strength as you went through those treatments and openly talked about being afraid, being sick, etc. I also remember the joy you expressed, constantly, when you would talk about your sweet Katie and later your excitement over Tori when Alden surprised you with her. I know you don't feel depressed when you spend time with those beautiful girls!!!! I know mine have the ability to "heal" me, too.

You have a wonderful support system in Anna and your many friends right here. Take it one step at a time and don't try to fix everything at once. That's what I finally had to tell myself. I cannot do everything for everyone, keep this house clean, keep the yard neat, take care of the pets, do my job, stay healthy, etc. I just can't! And you can't either. It's so easy to dish out advice, isn't it? Ha Ha! My mother tells me what I "ought" to do all the time. Easy for her to say when she is retired and on the outside, looking in.

Please know that we are all concerned and are right here for you. Do you have a minister you could talk with? I have found that relying on my faith has helped me through some pretty dark times. Sometimes that objective listener is exactly what you need.

You will be in my prayers.
Logan