I really appreciate all your advice, I came here because really you are the only people who could possibly understand how I feel.

I have weighed it all up in my mind over and over again, and decided I best leave well alone and try and move on, he will always hold a special place in my heart and never be forgotten, gosh I decided to change the desktop and take his pic off as it is just a constant reminder of him and hurts me to see him, and low and behold I must have done something not right, next time I started up there he was again lol, is that a sign or what? just a gentle reminder not to ever forget the wee soul.

I might still hear back , who know's but I must not think about it so much, it is only making me feel miserable and bad about it all.

So onward's we go, will let you know if I do hear anything.