I haven't been around as much lately, but I will say this. I appreciate what you and the other rescuers on PT do. I realize it is something that I could not do myself because I would have much too much difficulty in letting go when it was time for the cats to move on. I can also tell that you try to do what is best for you, your family, and the cats in your care. Some of the decisions you have had to make in recent months cannot have been easy ones. Only you truly know your situation, so don't let others make you feel guilty about it. God bless you.