I'm so sorry about your mom meg, and that this is still happening. But remember that we're all here for you, and it isn't your fault.

It made me realize that it wasn't ME, but rather my mother had her own problems and I couldn't fix them. All I could control was my reaction to her.
That is good advice, and what Karen said too about her friend, pretending her mom was just a wacko aunt. Just try not to let her bother you too much. Focus on all the other people who love you. Your family, friends, and pets all love you, and we do too.