I wish i had good news to tell you, Ellie's mouth is just awful, i am surprised she can even eat at all, poor wee thing, it is almost as bad as when i had to let my Ash go,despite her treatment,i have always known that i would probably have to let Ellie go because of it,but no not yet.
The lump could be either cancerous or not, but it is not fatty tissue, which is what i had hoped for,i don't know how long it has been there, and i just have to hope that it has been there a while and not growing.
The option to have it removed is not a good one, because of Ellie's condition, going under could be fatal, not necessarily whilst under, but afterwards,last time she had her dental she got the cat flu despite her vaccination and was close to dying,this time she might not get so lucky.
Also being on steroids lowers her immunity to infection,and often stress will bring the cat flu on as Ellie is a a carrier,a catch 22 situation here.
Ellie continues to slowly loose weight, she probably is as thin as when i first rescued her five years ago, she is 3.5kgs and used to be 4.4kgs before this mouth problem invaded her already stressed wee body.
I also decided i did not want to put Ellie through any more, i know that her life span is going to be shortened, and i just have to keep her going as long as i can and keep her as comfortable as i can in the meantime. I did ask what if the lump is cancerous and causes her pain, how will i really know, he said if she stops eating , then you will know .
It is a hard decision to make,but i have made it, Ellie suffers enough with her bad mouth, no more for my girl.
Today she had her flu jab and we got another jab for the pain,it has been a while since she had one of those, so hoping it helps with her comfort, she also had one of her ears cleaned out, was a bit mucky, she hated that more than anything else, poor wee girl also peed just before we took her out of the cage, through stress.
She is not feeling the best right now, but hopefully tomorrow she might pick up or in the next few days.
My heart is heavy right now, i feel very low and depressed just thinking about what is ahead, I love this wee girl with all my heart, she is such a character, I cannot believe i am going to be loosing another cat, if she is with us next xmas, that will indeed be a bonus, and we can only hope for that, as long as she is reasonably comfortable, i know with her mouth she does experience pain no matter what we do for her, which concerns me a great deal.
The only consolation in all of this, is i know Ellie would have died years ago, she at least has had five happy years with me and hopefully with a miracle maybe a few more yet.
Thanks for all the prayers and good wishes, sadly,sometimes even that is just not enough.
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