Pat please, there was absolutely nothing more that you, the vets or I, could have done for these precious babies. As for that so called lady who gave you Christofur in the first place and then blasted you for having him PTS, the HELL with her. IMO, she gave you Holy Hell to cover up the guilt she was feeling for giving you a sick kitty in the first place. This is how some people cover up their lies and guilt, by yelling at you and making it look like it was your fault. She knew something was more wrong with him and that's why she gave you very little information on him. If every vet said that he was in worse shape then you've been told, then where does the fault lie??? Definitely NOT on you, but on the lady who gave him to you.

So please, try and rid yourself of your doubts and guilt. It was NOT your fault. Remember, you DID the right thing by NOT letting little Christofur suffer any longer. I'm glad that you took him in, because God knows how long this sweet boy would have suffered if he had stayed with that woman.
Remember that.

Of course your are in pain on the loss of sweet Christofur, it's only normal. Like I said, it doesn't matter how short or long of a time we have them for.
I cried liked a baby for days on the loss of my little girl and still miss her to this day and that was back in Oct. 2009. Remember, everyone has their own path to healing and their own timetable for grieving. Grief is as individual as each person. There are no hard and fast rules.
Here's a picture of my little girl, who at the time was named, Miss kitty, I like to share with you.


May the healing begin for you soon Pat.

((((((HUGS))))))