I Agree Megan live your life as you see fit for yourself, and stop trying to please your mother, just continue to do it for your own-well being sweetie.

She is obviously a very unhappy person and she is dysfunctional because of it, it seems nothing you do will ever please her, it is a pity your mother does not realise just how lucky she is to have a daughter like you, I do hope in time your mother will get through her" whatever you wish to call it in her life ",and you will get the closeness, and bond that you so desire with her, I think you need it now more than ever at your age, and your mother just doesn't seem to get that, she is too caught up in her own little world I think to see beyond anything else.

Megan can I adopt you?