Val, you are so funny! I don't think you will ever forget "that store"....lol. That was a fun time.

I have been to all kinds of counseling and honestly its all the same and all stuff that I know but just can't seem to apply to myself. I don't know what has triggered the depression this time. I have finally realized that I have alot of built up anger from dealing with the cancer and the after effects from that. I mean I felt for so long while all that was going on that I had to be strong for my family so that they wouldn't fall apart. There was no time to focus on me. I did what I was told and did my best to reassure the family that I was fine. Now, after all this time I am finally angry!! Makes no sense to me. I hate what happened to me!! I feel like I have done nothing but go downhill ever since. For the rest of the family it is over for them, but for some reason I feel like I can't get back on track. I am a basket case and feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown. I don't know why. I can't answer any questions. All I know is that I am a mess!