I'm so sick of crying.

[slleipnir]

Hey, sorry to hear Meg. I have no idea what to say. She doesn't sound like she's being very thoughtful of you....Hope you feel better

[*LabLoverKEB*]

Well, I don't exactly know what is going on. ... but all I can say is that I'm so sorry, Megan, really, I am.

[luvofallhorses]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I really, really hope things start looking up for you. We all love you and care about you. I hate to see that you are hurting. ((hugs)) I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

[Alysser]

I hate seeing anyone go through such a horrible situtation. I hate this. You don't deserve this at all. You deserve so much better and I can't believe your mother is actually putting this all on you. Megan, everybody gave you wonderful advice and I hope things get better for you as soon as possible!
((((HUGS))))
Alyssa

[Anita Cholaine]

I'm so sorry Megan

I know you don't deserve this at all... Try to think of all the things you have, and that are really important.. You have a life and lots of people who care about you.. Don't let your mum ruin it... (I know it must be hard, since I'm a quite similar situation with my mum...)

(((hugs))) and feel free to PM if you need to talk...
Hope to see you better soon...
Natali

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

So my mom tried to make up for Thursday night by taking me out to dinner and taking me to Barnes & Noble.

She never said ANYTHING about Thursday night. No apology, no explanation, no nothing. She bought me and my brother dinner and Fazoli's, took us to B&N and bought my BROTHER a book. She made me buy my own.

A dinner out and a trip to B&N doesn't make up for 17 years of neglect and hardships and not having a mom PERIOD.

My dad, brother, Angie and her two kids went to the Brewer's baseball game this afternoon. It was the most fun I've had in months. Despite Angie being drunk by the end of the night, she hugged me multiple times and told me she loved me. Something I don't even get from my biological mother. She sang songs with me, offered to buy me things (which I politely refused), and every once and a while would put her hand on my shoulder, or on the small of my back, like she wanted me to know she was always there, keeping an eye on me. Today was a blast, we bonded with Angie's kids and had so much fun. (JJ Hardy is a HOTTIE HOTTIE!)

I also got a wonderful message from Donna, (sorry I missed your call, I was at the game!) which made my day even better. Thank you so much.

Things are still tense between my mother and I, and I'm not ready to talk to her about things. I wish I would have said what I wanted to say Friday morning, the morning after she was missing, but I was absolutely fuming and it wouldn't have been the best time, being before school and all.

Finally, I'll attach some pictures of Angie, the kids, and the baseball game. It was such a great experience. I'm glad I have someone like Angie in my life now.

(L to R; Dad and brother, Dad and Angie, Weinie Race!, all the kids (me, jake, ashley and katlynn) and last is Angie on the bus back, singing... she had TOO much to drink!)

[Karen]

Glad you had a fun day, you deserve it. Guess Angie is one of those people (there are always plenty, at the games I have been to) who think beer & baseball are a great match!

[luvofallhorses]

I am glad you had a great time, you deserve it.

[Alysser]

I'm so glad you had a good day! I hope their are many many more to come.

[ILoveMyAbbyGirl]

Today started out great... I didn't have school, slept in till 10, and worked at 4. Work was fine, I had this feeling of self pride for some reason, and I held my head a little higher and was a little friendlier.

My manager, Sarah, came over to the manager that was bagging for me and said to her, "One of our 9's need to go home at 8:30." (meaning someone who goes home at 9 needs to go a half hour early, our numbers were bad)

Usually, in these circumstances, the manager will single out the two or three people that are ELIGIBLE to go home, and play the "Pick a Number" game to see who gets to go home. But Sarah, FAVORING the other person, doesn't even give me a chance to TRY and go home early. Sarah is friends with the other girl, so she automatically let the other girl go home and didn't even give me a chance. Mind you, the girl she favors was doing lame ass jobs like taking baskets back, and most of the time was just sitting around doing nothing.

Now don't get me wrong, staying the extra half hour wasn't bad. It's just the fact that she isn't showing fairness and equality. Everytime I'm there, she favors this ONE girl over everyone else.

Toppping it off, she isn't even MANAGING. She is off talking to people at the service desk, wanderinig around the store, not doing her job AT ALL. It's SO irritating when you need her and have NO CLUE where she is.

*breath*

My best friends pretty much hate each other. To make a long story short, X and Y talked about dating, Y wanted to date X but thought that if something were to happen and they would break up, their friendship would be in shambles. Y said no to X, now X is being a drama queen and said that Y led her on, blah blah blah. X wants "space" from Y, and now Y is broken hearted because she feels like she ruined EVERYTHING between the three of us.


I AM SO SICK OF DRAMA.

My day started out okay, but I'm at my breaking point again. Drama, my friend and I got pulled over last night and she was a wreck, my stress-filled job, my mom, I'm just soooo tired of everything.

I can't take this anymore.

[Karen]

You need to take a little time and focus on you. Have yourself a strong cup of hot cocoa, or tea, or whatever, and realize that all these dramas belong to other people. Which ones, and how you choose to react, is up to you. You can still be friends with X and Y, but if they continue to fight, you'll quickly see which of them is truly your friend, and willing to talk about something other than the issues between the two of them. Set up ground rules if you want - "I will still be your friend, but do not talk badly about x/y to me, I will not choose between you."

Buy yourself a rose, if you likes roses (some other flower if you have a different favorite) - just a single stem won't cost a whole lot. Look at it, sniff it, and realize that there is beauty in the world. And when it begins to wilt, save a few petals and press them in a book, to have a reminder of this in the days ahead.

It is hard sometimes, to remember, but you can remain calm in the midst of a storm, and you'll be a better person for it.

Oh, and for the work thing? I can do you one better than that. I got fired from my first job because the boss didn't like teenagers. Why he hired me in the first place is a mystery, now that I know that. But what made that worthwhile was when a coworker went on maternity leave (with twins) a few months later, all the other ladies convinced him he had to rehire me! Work fo your own pride, never mind what the "manager" thinks. If it really bothers you, you could talk to her boss, but it probably isn't worth the fuss. You are a good, worthy person, you have to remember that.

[Lizzie]

That's good advice from Karen, and something I've done for myself on occasion. Sometimes I've bought a few flowers, a few hand-made chocolates, or a coffee-table book on a favorite subject, it's been my way of saying that I'm worthwhile. I remember having to go back and live somewhere I really hated when I was about 20, and I knew it would depress me. I stopped by before moving in and put a potted azalea on the table with a card I'd written to myself. When I moved in, that special welcome was waiting for me and it didn't matter that I'd done it for myself.

Your manager is probably bored with her job and has become careless. It will be noticed by her manager eventually. I should think everyone on PT has been in a job where they've had to suffer from seeing someone else favored, it happens in every workplace.

Won't you be going away to college soon? I left home at 18 to go to nursing school and I couldn't wait to get away from my step-mother; those last months at home seemed to last forever. She controlled the family with hysterics and we all fell in line because it was easier than having to cope with her fits of rage. Even if you have to live at home while you are in college, you will be starting an exciting new life and it may help you distance yourself from your home life.

[cyber-sibes]

So sorry to hear how awful your mother treats you. She sounds like a troubled woman. There is a term in recovery groups - "detachment", and it's a skill you can learn. By realizing that you have no control over people, places, and things, you can stop trying to influence them. Acceptance is a hard thing to swallow, but in the long run, the only person you really have any control over is... you! If you can step back and watch your mom as if she were someone who is in desperate need of help, you may start to feel less like a victim. You can put some distance there and not take it so personally - she probably treats everyone that way... She is making choices she will one day regret. Accept the love and care that others are showing you, and know that you are a wonderful child of God and deserve good things. You can make your own choices about how to treat others. Perhaps your own experience is helping mould you into a loving, caring, sensitive young woman. While you may not like your past, you can make choices today that will lead to a wonderful future!

[moosmom]

Megan,

Sorry I missed your call the other day. But you know how to reach me. Glad you had a good time at the game.

Angie sounds like she's got a heart of gold and WANTS to be there for you. Please, take her up on it. While your biological mother means well, she doesn't seem to get it.

Concentrate on helping yourself rather than your Mom. If you can spare a couple of bucks, get a pedicure (I should take my own advice!!), a massage or something to pamper yourself.

Again, my celly is always on. I'll be around tonight after 8 pm. Call me!!

[carole]

Megan you know what your biggest problem is you CARE too much, now i mean that in a the best way possible, but really you worry so much about every one else, you need to start thinking about YOU sweetie and that YOU are important, everyone has given you some wonderful advice and I can only agree with them, take some special time for yourself, and don't worry about your friends, they will sort it out for themselves, just be friends with them both.

Sorry to hear about work, guess there is not much you can do there, and yes unfortunately it happens, like teachers pet in school, i must say i hate that kinda stuff, so unfair, life is like that at times darn unfair.

You know you always have my love and support here on PT and anytime night or day,remember when it is day there it is often night here, so PM anytime , love and hugs to you, and I hope you can find some peace in your life soon sweetie and go do something awesome for yourself.