i feel like the most terrible kittymum.............and i probably am

**carole** · 06-10-2003, 04:42 PM

I am so unhappy right now, i have accidentally caused my precious baby lexie to be hurt, this morning i was looking in my daughters draws for a singlet for her(Its a cold day in nz today) i did not notice lexie follow me, and i jammed her tail in the draw, they are kinda stiff draws, she did not even make a noise, i just saw her run away, and her tail was all fluffed up, i realized what had happened , i picked her up and blood poured onto the floor and my foot, i panicked, my god what have i done.
I rushed her off to the vet, they say it does not appear broken, but shaved it, and said it needed one stitch, so now my baby is at the vets all day, frightened and alone, and needing a sedation, at least they will give her pain relief, thank goodness, i hope to pick her up this afternoon, unfortunately she ate a meal before we left so they will probably wait to do the sedation.
I feel so stink and sick in the stomach, my gentle, loving wee kitty, who gives me so much, and i have put her through this.
I cant forgive myself for this . I hate myself right now for hurting my baby i really do. Thanks for listening.

**Cataholic** · 06-10-2003, 04:45 PM

Carole,
I am so sorry lexie was injured. BUT, IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!!! We accidently hurt things, babies, children, pets, ourselves, ALL the time!!! Please, don't beat yourself up. Now, you will be extra careful...but, even yet, accidents do happen. If not, they would all be called PURPOSEFULS!!!

I am sure Lexie will be fine. I bet in two weeks time, everything will have been forgotten. So, give her some extra loving when she comes home, and all will be well.

**NoahsMommy** · 06-10-2003, 04:49 PM

It wasn't your fault. Don't feel too badly Carole.

I can't tell you how many times I've stepping on Micah's paw, Noah's tail or hit Basie with a foot while walking. They just get too close and its hard not to accidentally hit them. I hate it too, I cry every time I do it and my heart breaks. But they are the most wonderful beings on this planet, they forgive and come back three minutes later for love.

I'm sorry you are feeling so badly. We all know how you feel and we know it was accidental.

Take care.

**carole** · 06-10-2003, 04:57 PM

Thank you guys your kind words do comfort me a little, but i wont be happy again until my baby is back home and well again, i just feel so bad that i have caused her this unecessary pain and suffering, oh yes i will be extra extra extra careful, i usually am, my sooti used to have an extra long tail, and i was so cautious with him, my poor lil lexie, i miss her so.

**PayItForward** · 06-10-2003, 05:05 PM

You are a good mum to your furkids, sadly accidents happen sometimes.

Lexie will be back to perfect heath very shortly, don't beat yourself up about it.

**carole** · 06-10-2003, 05:12 PM

Thanks guys, i will try, i just love her so much, she is so special to me, i will let u know how she is, thanks for listening everyone. you guys are great, i knew i would feel a little better once i told you all. my guilty conscience i suppose.

**wolflady** · 06-10-2003, 05:19 PM

{{{Carole}}}
Please don't be so hard on yourself, sweetie. Like everyone else said, it was an accident. I too have accidentallly stepped on paws and tails from time to time and I always feel terrible, but it's always accidental. My Marius in particular loves to literally be underfoot, which oftentimes causes me to trip over or step on him. He still hasn't learned!

Your girl will be just fine. Give her some lovins when she comes home and she won't think anything of it

**hugs**
Karen

**Catsnclay** · 06-10-2003, 05:39 PM

Gosh Carole, don't beat yourself up over this! When Yoshi was a baby he would constantly stick his paws in EVERYTHING! One day my girlfriend was here, opened the refrigerator door Yoshi put his paw in, she didn't see it, and closed to door. He let out a yelp that scared the s*** out of both of us! I didn't know who to comfort first, Yoshi who had finally learned for the last time not to stick his paws in things, or Kathy who was in tears!

Accidents DO happen, luckily I don't think animals hold a grudge!

Just shower her with lots of kissy's & treats when she gets home, I'm sure she will love you any way!

**Prairie Purrs** · 06-10-2003, 05:39 PM

I echo everyone else--it was an accident, and accidents happen. Tail injuries bleed like crazy, which is always scary, but Lexie will be fine.

**Sara luvs her Tinky** · 06-10-2003, 06:40 PM

OH NO CAROLE...
Lexie is going to be fine....
don't blame yourself....
I know it is hard to see our babies hurt.. and when she comes home you can cuddle her silly.

*HUGS* to both of you.

**carole** · 06-10-2003, 08:16 PM

Thanks everyone, but im afraid its much worse than we thought, the vet rang me and lexies tail is broken, i cant believe it, i thought at first she had just bruised it, until it bled, now they have to amputate the end of it, i feel so bad, shes such an angel , she does not deserve to go through this, and im to blame, im so worried about her, i just hope everything goes ok with the surgery

**Cataholic** · 06-10-2003, 08:18 PM

Carole,
It still isn't your fault. Even if the absolute worst happened, it was an ACCIDENT!! These things do happen. So, know that Lexie is having the best care possible, and you and Lexie will survive this.
Hugs to you both,
Johanna

**carole** · 06-10-2003, 08:22 PM

yep i know u are right, we will come through this together, my little furangel and i, i hope she does forgive me, wouldnt blame her if she doesnt though,im gonna be here for her 100 per cent to take good care of my little baby when she comes home.

**ScantyNebula** · 06-10-2003, 08:36 PM

Just as everybody else promised, cats are magnificent creatures and they forgive and forget! Lexie will not hate you for this, and I think she knows that you didn't and would never mean to hurt her! Its unfortunate what happened, but DON"T BLAME YOURSELF , or try not to anyway. I know its hard right now, anyone in your shoes would feel guity, but just know that it happens to the best of us, and Lexie will be fine. She'll be more than happy to see you again I'm sure! Take care.

**Cinder & Smoke** · 06-10-2003, 08:40 PM

Aw, dont sweat it, MeowMee...
God made Tailz a lil extree-long,
jest in case sumpin like dis happinz!

Lexie will be *swisshin* dat Tail inna few daze like
nuffin ebber happined!

Look atta *brite side* - now it'z gonna be too short ta get
jammed inna same draw agin!