Just need to vent and cry

I'm glad you decided to share this. Our family went through these same
problems as my Mom got older. Like you, it was my younger sister who did
the most checking in & visiting with her because she lived just a few minutes
away. It can get to be a very sad experience as we notice subtle changes
in behavior.:(

Finally, we had to all have a family meeting & made the decision that Mom should be
introduced to a "assisted living". We found a great place where she had
her own apartment & neighbors to visit when she wanted to be social.

jazzcat - you can vent here anytime!

I know you and your family decided that your dad would live in his own home until the end, and that is fair.

But Lizbud brought up another point - would your dad be a bit happier living where he could meet people and get more social contact? OR - is there a seniors day program that could take him out every day, leaving the burden mostly to weekends?

At some point - not right now - you may want to look at what you and your siblings want versus what is best for your dad.

It's not easy, not at all. My mom is 75 going on 40 - but I still wonder if I will have to deal with anything like this, and when...

{{{hugs}}}

(((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))) Lori! I'm just now seeing this. E-mail me!:love:

Wow -- I'm so sorry you're going through this with your Dad. It reminds me so much of how it was with my Grandpa as his dementia progressed -- when he was himself, he'd give the proverbial shirt off his back to anyone in need, but as things got worse, he was convinced that his caregiver (a beloved niece) was stealing from him. (The stuff she had supposedly "stolen" was pretty ludicrous -- a broken radio, corroded batteries...) Sometimes, when Grandpa would come back to himself a little bit, even he would laugh at how ridiculous some of his claims were -- but those times were the exception rather than the rule.

This has got to be heartbreaking and exhausting for you -- and though you never even drop so much as a hint in that direction, if it were me, I'd be feeling as though I were getting an unfair amount of the burden just because of my geographical location. (Like I said, you NEVER bring that up, Lord love you. :love:)

I'm not going to offer you any advice, but I will be keeping you and your entire family in my prayers. You are an absolutely wonderful person for handling this situation with so much love and grace.

Big hugs,
Diana

Thanks for all the support everyone. It really does help. I'm feeling much better now. Dad seems to be better too, his thinking is more normal and he's not worked up.

Mamaducky - trust me, I'm not a saint about it. I often feel like I've been stuck with this because I'm the closest but then I tell myself I'm glad I can help.

I've been caring for my parents for most my adult life. They've needed my help since I moved back from Nashville in 1992 whne my father was diagnosed with prostate cancer, then mom was diagnosed with breast cancer plus several other major surgeries and illnesses. It got very intense in 2003 when my mother suffered seven fractured vertebrae and died the next year. It's been non-stop since. Now at age 40 I feel like my career has been caring for my parents. I just wish I could have seen the future and majored in nursing in college instead of public relations -it would have been more useful.

as you know, i too am facing the same problems as you. i too, thought it would be best to keep dad in his own home. wow was i ever wrong. please think about moving him closer to you, to a skilled facility. this was the best thing i did for my dAD, i even think he has improved a bit!

not only will it give you peace of mind, but your dad will be cared for by people who know what they are doing an he will get 3 meals a day.....you can't ask for any more.

pm me if you need to ask more questions. my father adjudted within 2 weeks and is now happier and healthier, even gained a few pounds
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sorry about the typeing - i had thumb surgery and am now a left-handed person for the next 7 weeks. trust me, this is not fun either... think about all the things i HAVE to do without my right hand :eek:

It's interesting that you said that you feel your career has been taking care of your parents. When I was experiencing much the same thing, I felt the same way. And after my Dad died, I either would stay w/my Mom in PA for a month or so or I'd bring her to OH to stay w/me. I went back and forth to PA for 5 years. It was exhausting. If you think you can move your dad to a facility closer to you, it might be something to think about it. Of course, you alone know the big picture but it could mean a better quality of life for you both. You're a good daughter; never forget that and blessings, both expected and unexpected, will flow to you. :)

Been there.

It's not easy extending yourself in that direction.

If it helps you to know, you aren't alone in having to do a job that you feel is
a 'thankless' proposal.

Do what I used to do.

Jump in the car and go for a ride.

Take a tape you like, put in on and go for a short run about town.

Cry, sing, yell, talk to yourself, ask questions, scream -let it all hang out.
When the tape is over come back home and relax.

Sometimes there is very little you can do about life and the turns in it. We are along for the ride. It's bumpy, you go places you don't want to go or see-but you always are richer for the experience. Good or bad.

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Back in 2001-2, I had a six month trial from hell.


9/11, my dad lost a leg, died on Halloween, buried him the day before my b-day. Blew up two engines in cars, my brother lost a toe, my GF got cancer and passed away in March 02. And there were a few more things that came to pass that I cannot remember.

It got to the point where I thought to myself, 'god, I don't know what else you can toss at me, but if I can make it though this, nohing will ever get me down."

Tough people manage, the ones that don't have the strength crumble.

Think about being on a ladder. There are people who are farther down the rungs that have more to bear than we can imagine.

Look up, that's the only place to go.:)

Thanks Richard. I often get inspiration from you, and even more often a laugh which is just as helpful.

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Thanks Richard. I often get inspiration from you, and even more often a laugh which is just as helpful.

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The laughs I can handle....If I inspire you, you may want to see a mental health specialist!;)

The hardest part is thinking you are alone with what you have to do.
The easiest part is finding out that you aren't alone and you have many wonderful people on PT that will lend you a shoulder, a hand or just a few words of encouragement.

You are never alone in the world, until you speak about what's in your heart.

One of my favorite 'Mexican sayings' is "Caras miran, Corazones no".

Translated?

Faces are seen, Hearts aren't.

Lori, I'm glad to hear that you are feeling at least a bit relieved. (((hugs)))

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The bad part about it is that she asked him for them and he said okay but it upset him because he said he gave her a few ears earlier this week and that was enough. I've noticed that recently the dementia is making him very stingy with things.:(

Thanks for the shoulders.

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I would guess that he feels very out of control so by keeping as much close to him as he can lets him feel lilke he regains some control over his life back. I am sure that he realizes he is losing time and things and that has to be scary. That there are things slipping through his fingers so he tries to hold on tighter.

Good luck and my best wishes. It is very hard to deal with dementia and alzheimers and aging loved ones. Take deep breaths and give him a hug. *soft smile*