I Can't Handle Anymore, Prayers Please

[manda_moo87]

As some of you may have noticed, I have not been posting as frequently as I usually do. This is going to continue for the next while. Things here right now are not going too smooth...

I don't know what to do with myself, I've got so much on my mind all I can do is cry. For one, my Mom is not well. Three years ago my Mom was in a terrible car accident which nearly killed her. Ever since then her health has been failing. She's changed so much since her accident, she can barely walk, her personality has changed, she has brain damage and her life expectancey has been shortened... She has now developed heart problems... I just heard her talking to my Dad and she said she's concerned about it. I'm so afriad I'm going to lose her. If I do, I don't know what I'll do, I NEED my Mom in my life. Lately she's been grasping her chest with pain from her heart and it scares me so so much...

My Grandma, whom lives with us and I am also very close just discovered that she has osteoporosis stage 3 which is very, very serious. My Dad is working himself way way too hard, as we're very short on money. We still haven't recieved a settlement from my Mom's accident and so we spend thousands, and thousands of dollers paying for my Mom's aqupunture and physio and are therefor very tight on money...

School is also taking its tole on me. I'm supposed to be graduating in June and I have so much to do. I've just missed a week and a half of school as I've been ill. I can't handle anymore stress, I feel like I'm about to have a nervous breakdown. Life is just so hard and so stressful right now I feel like I'm about to burst.

Anyways thank you for letting me get this out, I've been bunching my emotions up lately and I really needed to get this out and talk to someone about it. My friends don't really like to listen to my problems... so what better place to turn to than PT? All I ask is that you prayer for us, and that everything will be okay...

So my posting won't be as regular, I've just got so much on my plate right now. I don't seem to get much time to myself anymore.

-Amanda

PS, on a happy note all the furkids are doing fine. Thank God.

[anna_66]

Oh Amanda I'm so sorry to hear that things are so rough for you right now. I wish there was some magical words I could say to make you feel better and make your problems go away, but unfortunately I don't have any.
Just know I'm here if you need to talk and will be saying prayers for you and your family.

Take care and post when you can.

Love
Anna

[Jadapit]

Gosh, you are having a tough time. I'm really sorry. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.

How was the Cher concert? Did you get to go?

[Jods]

I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time...
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You will be in my thoughts.

[manda_moo87]

Originally posted by Jadapit
How was the Cher concert? Did you get to go?

Yes, I did go. Spent the last of my money at it, lol. It was incredible, the best night of my entire life.


Thank you everyone...

[Karen]

You will be in our prayers.

[dukedogsmom]

I am so sorry things are so rough. If you feel you have too much on your plate, would it help postponing the college for maybe one term? You could be there for your mom and grandmother and get rid of a little of that stress. Maybe your dad could talk to your attorney about the hold up in the settlement? I know it must be next to impossible to deal with. Try to stay strong for them and we'll be here for you.

[flamepony12]

I'm so sorry, Amanda. I will keep you in my thoughts. ((((((HUGS))))))

[petslover]

I am so sorry to hear about your mom. Maybe she will get better. With all the advancement in techology she will be okay. I will put you and your family in my prayers. Take Care

[manda_moo87]

Originally posted by dukedogsmom
If you feel you have too much on your plate, would it help postponing the college for maybe one term? You could be there for your mom and grandmother and get rid of a little of that stress. Maybe your dad could talk to your attorney about the hold up in the settlement?

I might be taking a year off before I start college, it hasn't been decided yet. I was going to start in September but we just found out the college I've applied for has a one year waiting list for the course I want to talk. My Mom is afriad that I take some time off I'll lose my art... (I'm going into visual arts) so she wants me to apply to another college where I can start asap. I personally really feel I need a year off and that way I would work for my Dad, which would probably help. I have a feeling that's what's going to happen, but who knows.

As for the settlement issue, I'm not all that sure what is happening with it. My parents don't discuss it with me, but from what I've heard it looks like its going to be a least another year before we get it. It's all so frustrating...

[luvofallhorses]

Amanda you'll be in my thoughts....like Val said we will be here for you. Hang in there (((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))

[joycenalex]

amanda, i'm sending prayers and hugs to you and for your family. kindest wishes, joyce

[Orca]

I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through No one should have to deal with that kind of stuff. You will get through it, I have faith in you, and you will be a stronger person because of it! You will be in my thoughts. *Hugs*

[Soapets]

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as well...............

You're going through a very rough time, but you'll get through it, and you'll be a much stronger person because of it. I wish people didn't have to experience so much stress and emotional pain in order to grow spiritually and emotionally........

[chocolatepuppy]

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through all of this. You will be in my prayers.