The tears are running down my cheeks. I lost a cat at age 21 (her's not mine) and I still cry when I think about her death.

My heart goes out to you. You will never be able to replace Sandy, but there are many kittens (I call all cats, kittens) in need of a good, loving home. And guess what, no two kittens are the same, and they get better and better - and you can love them harder!