Thank you, Karen and Randi.
Yes, I hope surgery would be an option, but I sure hope I won't have to take those meds for the rest of my life (due to the mentioned side effects)!

And then there are still these plans re. a spine surgery, supporting the spine will metal rods. This is something I also fear. What if I cannot move afterwards? What if I can no longer take pictures because I cannot bend my back?

There are just so too many issues to deal with; honestly, I don't know what I have done to deserve all this. and sometimes I wonder if it's really worth fighting for. For what? I'm all alone in this world, and always will be.