September 20th, 2010... the day my world crumbled apart..

[Husky_mom]

I wanna thank Anna_66... thank you for the lovely card thank you so much..

also I got a lil wall hanging "poem" from a relative.. posted it on the blog..

today I did have a nice cry... reading both of these made me "let it out" some.. thanks..

[momcat]

I'm still thinking of you and the prayers continue to be prayed. You have shown extraordinary strength, courage, and dignity through this unspeakable ordeal.

If I can make a suggestion here for your children. After my husband died I held back several personal things of his and put them in a box for our son. Mike takes a lot of comfort in that box and it gives him a sense of connection with his father. Maybe this could do the same for your children.

[RobiLee]

Always thinking of you, Isabel. You are always in my prayers.

[cassiesmom]

Thinking of you and your family again today, dear Isabel, and prayers said.

[Pembroke_Corgi]

Those pictures are really special. I hope you are still coping with everything, I'm still thinking about you and sending good thoughts everyday.

[phesina]

Prayers and hugs and sweet thoughts to you and your children every day, Isabel.

[anna_66]

I wanna thank Anna_66... thank you for the lovely card thank you so much..

also I got a lil wall hanging "poem" from a relative.. posted it on the blog..

today I did have a nice cry... reading both of these made me "let it out" some.. thanks..

You are so very welcome. I'm glad to have helped even just a bit.
(((HUGS)))

[wanwan1007]

Isabel,

Sending much love and prayers your way. Have you picked a name for your daughter?

[Husky_mom]

thanks to Pembroke_corgi... we got a lovely package with baby stuff.. will post pics once I take/upload some.. thank you so much also for the card.. ((hugs))...

I´ve been ok... having ups and downs.. especially while in the shower.. not sure why.. but I´ve managed to get by one day at a time... still have a lot on my plate to sort out.. but things are coming along... it´s really tough having to deal with this and still have to do tons of paperwork and whatnot.. what a hassle...

I did got the PT book in with the rest of my stuff.. they shipped it over.. I still have a few things to add.. sorry if it´s taking me long.. and it will take an extra 2 weeks to get to whomever goes next (still need the address of who´s next too)..

in regards of my baby´s name.. I think I´ve settled for one name.. I even dreamed about it.. actually dreamed of hubby telling me it was ok... but not sure if it was my subconscious or what..

I would´ve settled for Jordan Ariel.. but he didn´t liked much the Jordan part and i think it wouldn´t be fair to make my will now that he´s gone... so I was debating between Ariel Elizabeth and Ariel Reneé... and was thinking which ones of the list i made would´ve he liked the most...then I had this dream.. and now I´m 98% sure it will be Ariel Samantha... he really liked the name Samantha but we never really agreed on that one.. and being this way.. our baby will have a name we both agreed on and one he really liked... I do like the name Samantha but i didn´t wanted to have our baby named after someone we knew before.. but since the only one we "knew" we never even met and will never will made me go for it a bit stronger... the 2% remaining is because _I´m not sure which should go first.. although I don´t want the names to end/start with the same letter as it would be if Samantha went first..

[sana]

Samantha Ariel is a pretty name and Ariel Rene`e is LOOOVELY! I hope everything goes perfectly fine.

[Karen]

Ariel Samantha is pretty, and I am glad you did get the book amidst all you things! I'll prompt Richard to PM you the address of "who's next" in case he doesn't see this!

[Husky_mom]

I think I´m having some sort of postpartum depression.. only this one is prepartum.. or something like that...

I´m excited about our baby.. but I just don´t feel "as" excited... whenever I see something cute.. or even think about her.. I think about what the hubs might think and cry...and obviously get sad...

I miss his hand rubbing my belly.. and I´m starting to hate people rubbing it.. it´s got to the point it makes me feel uncomfortable...

I also hate when my mom rubs my hand or wants to hug me.. (I know she means good, and while I´ve never been too keen or tolerant to touching, lately it´s started to irritate me even more)...

I´ve lost interest in certain things.. like "why should i bother doing this or that... hubby is no longer here" (gross example.. shaving my legs.. and some other meaningless stuff)..

the kids have been a huge motivator.. but it´s hard not having him around..

and I really thank you all for still being here and keeping us in your thoughts and prayers...believe me you´ve helped me so much already..