Prayers for my husband...and me

[DJFyrewolf36]

My husband is very ill. He was born with a digestive system defect that doctors have told him will end up killing him eventually. I'm afraid that eventually is coming up a lot faster than I'm comfortable with. The problem is is that I can't get him into a doctor to where he can even get any relief from his pain much less doing anything about fixing the problem. As is, I'm waiting right now to hear if I'm going to be fired for missing too much time for being ill myself...I took ONE DAY without pay and I guess now I'm going to be screwed for it. I don't have the money to pay for insurance for my husband, I can't even care for myself properly. I live with five people just to make ends meet, how in the hell am I going to aford medical care? The government is absolutely no help because I make "too much money" WTH?!
If I loose this job (I'm only a temp...and my chances for permanent employ are obviously screwed if I do get fired) no one will hire me because of all the hell involved with my previous job. My work history is all messed up and on paper I look like a big fat looser of an employee.
If I loose this job there is nothing to stop me from killing myself. At least with my life insurance, my husband can finally get some help.
I've been kicked down too many times. I'm not even going to bother getting back up again.

[wolflady]

Gosh, that sounds so scary. Financial and health trouble is the absolute worst. I'm sad that so many people are stuck in this boat. I'm sorry I don't have any advice, but prayers are on the way from me so that you can find a solution.
**hugs**

[ramanth]

*HUGS*

I hope your husband feels better soon and that things start too look up for you both.

[JenBKR]

If there is anything I can do to help please let me know. I know how difficult financial troubles are, but having to then deal with job problems and everything that is going on with your husband...my prayers and thoughts are with you. I know you don't know me very well, but if you need to talk just pm me.

*Hugs*

[DJFyrewolf36]

I feel bad for even posting about this. Too many people are in my same situation...or even worse off and they're coping with it. I am so disgusted with myself.

[JenBKR]

You need to get it out and talk to people who will listen and care. Don't feel bad about that AT ALL. That's what we're here for! You cope by getting feelings out, if you keep them in you'll explode.

[luvofallhorses]

Please don't put yourself down I do hope things look up for you both very soon (((hugs)))

[DJFyrewolf36]

I guess the hardest part is watching my poor husband suffer. I wish that I could just make my illness go away so I can dedicacte my energy to helping him. He is a really good guy and to see him like this at only 25 is heartbreaking.

I've only been with him for three years but to loose him now would distroy me.

He is really bad off today...and since I missed work yesterday I had to come in today. It's taking every thing I have to not tell everyone to F off and just go home to be with him. I know though that loosing my job would only make things worse for us both.

I hope he doesn't end up in the ER again. They won't do jack for him except make him even more uncomfortable.

[caseysmom]

Your last paragraph is very troubling. Even contemplating suicide is not a good thing. Your husband would be horrified if you did that to "help" him. He would probably lose all his will to live...he needs you for as long as he can have you, each minute is precious.

[DJFyrewolf36]

Originally posted by caseysmom
Your last paragraph is very troubling. Even contemplating suicide is not a good thing. Your husband would be horrified if you did that to "help" him. He would probably lose all his will to live...he needs you for as long as he can have you, each minute is precious.

I've thought of this too. It is a major struggle. I just feel so powerless and can't help but think that there is someone out there who can support him better than I can.

[beeniesmom]

Hugs....
I hope the situation gets better.

[caseysmom]

Sweetie you love him, your the best person for him.

[DJFyrewolf36]

Sigh....

I just got off the phone with him...he's puking blood again.
He sounded so forelorn too...he kept saying that he just wished I could come home from work and hold him.

I want to so bad but I NEED this job. Soon I can put him on my insurance and maybe something can get done.

[chocolatepuppy]

Please don't call yourself a loser! Bad times fall on the best of people. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, that you and your husband have better health and that things turn around for you. {hugs}

[Daisy and Delilah]

Oh my goodness. This is so upsetting. My heart goes out to you and your husband honey. I will have you both in my thoughts and prayers. You had to get it out so you did the right thing. Holding it in could have made you feel worse. Please stay strong for you and your husband. I've been through alot of hardship in my life too so feel free to PM me anytime if you need someone to talk to. Please don't give up. There are alot of wonderful people here for you. You're not alone. {{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

Terry