I am sad to say that Speedy will be put to sleep tomorrow. I called about 20 rescues in California and all of them were either full or didn't take a dog his age and health. But even if they did, I think he'd die of heartbreak. He has not eaten and has hardly slept since the day we got him. All he does is wander the house crying and howling, looking for his parents. I talked to my mother in law and explained to her that I don't think Speedy can be rehomed at his health and age. She was bawling, but I just told her the honest truth; that Speedy is devastated without her.

She is driving here tomorrow, so that she can be with Speedy when we put him down. She doesn't want him to die feeling abandoned.

I cannot stop crying about it. I keep thinking that I am making the wrong decision. I feel so guilty that he can't be happy here. But I keep telling myself...He has to take prednisone, he's diabetic, partially blind, and has sore spots all over. But it's hard to justify it. He's such a sweetie.