Daisy and Fred are gone. I was prepared for Daisy to leave, I was not prepared for Fred to leave. Oscar, Fred, Chloe, and Daisy all went to the vet today. Daisy was put to sleep while my mom and I looked on saying our last good-byes. As sick as it may sound, I was not all that upset when Daisy left us- I was totally prepared and I was doing her a favor by ending her pain and suffering. I cried for a couple of minutes and I told her to be happy and not to suffer anymore. However, Fred's death has left me shocked. I am just about dead now myself. Fred was not supposed to leave me today. Fred died about 5 minutes after we got home from the vet appointment. I waited out in the car while my mom ran inside to put them back- since I was supposed to go back to school (I can't miss anymore school, I've missed a lot already). Three minutes after my mom went inside, she came walking out with Fred in her arms. I went hysterical. I cried, and cried, and cried, and cried for at least 45 minutes. I was so hysterical that my mom called the school to let them know I was not coming back. I was crying so hard after my mom left for work that I started to get dizzy from breathing to hard and fast. I sat with Mr. Freddy for an hour playing "piggie/elephant nose" and "poke the schmarshmellow belly". I then began to browse through Daisy's and Fred's pictures- which made me even more depressed and cry even more. Fred was like Peanut, except male. He meant so much to me, and was bonded to me like glue. He was a true mama's boy! When Fred was still here, just the thought of the day when he would leave me put me in to tears. If he left me when I was prepared, it wouldn't be so hard- or if I saw it coming- but I wasn't/didn't. He was nowhere near as sick as my other rats are and did not look like he was ready to leave. Well, I am grateful that he did not have to suffer the same way Daisy it- oh that was terrible, I feel so horrible about her suffering- I wish I could have made her better. I feel so honored to have had them as part of my life.
I lost two of my kids today, I can't believe it. Now, I have to get ready for the perils that Chloe, Oscar, Violette, Phoebe and Suzie are going to give me. I only hope that they give me time to prepare before they leave- and not leave me like Mr. Freddy did.
Rest In Peace, Daisy and Fred- please find Peanut, Oreo, Skittles, Punkin, Nugget, and Sweet Pea fast. Now Fred can be with his girlfriend Peanut- he was so sad when she left- they were a couple- now they can be together again.
Please wish my beloved Mr. Freddy and Daisy a fast, safe trip to the Bridge.
God, I can't believe this. I should not be here typing any of this.
Daisy May
March 09, 2002-May 11, 2004
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She leave behind her sister, Chloe.
Mr. Freddy Tucker
November 21, 2002- May 11, 2004
He leaves behind his brother, Oscar.
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I really hope it helps out Oscar and keeps the others from getting sick. When it comes to Chloe's tumor, I don't know if we are doing surgery. We still have to think about that. 
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