I talked to my mother on the phone today. As if I don't have enough things to worry about. I have decided to put my rat breeding on hold until I can sort through this awful mess that is my life.

My mother went into the doc's to have a mammagram done. Bad news. They found two dark spots that they are worried about. I told my mom not to worry until she knows for sure. She has always had fibrous tissue so it could be nothing but I could hear the panic in her voice. Now it's all talk about life insurance, if my brother and sister would have to go back to their real dad if my mom dies (which I would NEVER let happen! He's crazy and they are better off with me!.....but wouldn't they be able to stay with my stepdad Denny since he is married to my mom and their adopted father?) and how they need to write a will and stuff like that. Things I do not want to hear!


They are going to do an xray and an ultrasound in about three weeks as they need to have permission from the healthcare agency. She could have cancer, and they want her to wait! I hate how they do this to people. Just like my dad and his legs, which I believe could have been saved had the stupid a$$ insurance done something sooner.

So now it's just a waiting period, the worst part, the waiting. This brings new fear into my life as I now might have to worry about getting breast cancer later on in life. I hope that if she has cancer she caught it in time. I can't imagine what I would do if Il ost my mom. I don't even want to think about it. She must be so scared, I can imagine. Please send prayers for my mom, that she does not have cancer, and if she does that she will be one of those survivors everyone talks about. I do not want to see someone go through chemo etc. I told her to just chop her boobs off! Heck, what am I supposed to say? I have no idea.

I hope she went in time, please pray she did.


Thank you in advance, I know Pet Talk prayers work miracles.